Tales Of A Lonely Azn Boii

The challenge wasn’t in any way difficult. I just happened to wuss out and make excuses like “I am too busy” or “I am too tired” or some other stupid excuse like that.

But I must admit, it feels quite liberating to complete such a task. Today’s challenge was to approach two strangers, talk to them and put together everything you’ve learned but add in something interesting to keep the conversation going.

So essentially, I had to add something to keep the conversation alive. I thought about things I liked to talk about that were strange or interesting and travelling came to mind.

I like to travel to other countries and explore other cultures. That’s one of the reasons I started studying French (and French girls are tres mignonne!). I managed to hold a really good conversation.

Talked to people about where they’ve gone, where they’d like to go, whether they wanted to go to Paris or Italy or New York. Which was the most romantic place to go.

I was in the zone and conversation flowed so naturally. The problem was towards the end, I felt as if I was milking the topic too hard. I felt like I was trying too hard to talk about that one particular aspect.

But it hurts even more when you break a promise to yourself. After all, who are you hurting but yourself.

I realised lately that I don’t have much discipline. I find that everyone is so much more focused on the task at hand.

My friends who aim to get tank work out religiously. My friends who want to do well in VCE read books as much as fish drink water.

In all honesty, I am not really as talented as other people think. Sure I work hard but not to the level that these people aim for.

I think it’s time I narrowed my goals down. In a video I posted previously, they talked about setting 10 goals and then picking the most important three to use. I think mine will be:

- To get an A+ in my SACs from now on and study every night to do well in the exams.

- To get my pulse down to a number that is slightly lower than average. Let’s go for 65bpm. As of this very moment, mine is 92bpm. A lot higher than I would have thought!

- To master the social skills I never had as a child before the end of this month.

I think it’s time I focused a lot more directly on the tasks at hand. Hopefully this will help me excel in life. Focus. That’s what I need.

I was in study period today and my friend was wetting himself over English. He started getting quite fearful of how his ATAR would turn out based on his English results.

I know for a fact that my English is sub par. I looked at my English SAC results today. So far I’ve gotten a B, an A and I know the most recent SAC I totally bombed out and will probably get a D if I’m lucky.

My friend who’s wetting himself has so far gotten a B+ and 2 A’s.

On a different note, instead of studying Physics, I decided to look up how study scores are counted.

This is copied from the VCAA website:

The maximum study score is 50. Each year, and for every study, the mean study score is set at 30. A score of between 23 and 37 shows that you are in the middle range of students; a score of more than 38 indicates that you are in the top 15%.

For studies with large enrolments (1,000 or more):

• 2% of students will get a score on or above 45
• 9% of students will get a score on or above 40
• 26% of students will get a score on or above 35
• 53% of students will get a score on or above 30
• 78% of students will get a score on or above 25
• 93% of students will get a score on or above 20.

So essentially, if you get a 38, that means you’re in the top 15%. If we were to assume that there are approximately 50,000 students doing Year 12 in 2012, then that means you’d need to be in the top 7,500.

My friend scored a 38, for most of his subjects. He was intelligent. There’s no doubt about it. But he only scored 38 for most of his subjects and that resulted in an ATAR of about 82.

Of course, there are many factors that are involved in the derivation of ATAR but they really are minor things and I personally feel that to rely on them is fool hearty.

Knowing the exact number of people I must beat though does give me motivation. I’ll be like the nerdy version of City Hunter, taking out kids with my SAC results and Exam marks!

I think viewing something like this in such a manner will make me feel less tense and hopefully perform better.

The fatigue and stress caused me to over react again today.

Some guy took my coke and opened it. I was trying to concentrate on UMAT drills and he kept taking my coke. I told him to put it down and he pretended to do so, thinking I could not see him.

I told him again to put it down and he decided not to. I told him to put it down and he put it down only to pick it back up. I told him once again to put it down and he pretended to put it down again. I told him once again to put it down and he put it down and then picked it back up again.

At this point I was starting to get frustrated as the question I was doing was relatively difficult and this guy wouldn’t put my coke back.

“Put it down” I told him sternly. Once again, he put it down and too it back up. This repeated another 5 times. I raised my voice and told him to put it down. He finally did as he was told.

I went back to my UMAT drill and he picked it up again.

I punched the table, shot out of my seat and yelled at him to put it down.

I was so angry and just over his bullshitting. Sure, it was a joke. Or perhaps the first 10 times he did it they were jokes but he was genuinely starting to annoy me. The teacher of course yelled at me but her obese ass couldn’t do anything about it anyway.

I could hear some girls at the front giggling. They were used to seeing me reach my limit when it comes to patience. I’m always having my stuff stolen by my friends as a joke.

I usually don’t mind but some days I’m just too tired for their crap. Sometimes I’ll be doing a SAC and they would have stolen my scientific calculator. Sometimes I’ll be doing a practice exam and they’ll steal all my working pens.

I know they’re just trolling but sometimes enough is enough. I think my friends need to learn that there’s a time and a place. One day hopefully they’ll grow up and stop acting like a child that needs to be spanked.

Regardless of this, I definitely over reacted. Though I guess it was better than what I would have done a few years ago. People used to steal my stuff in Year 8 since I was the new kid and I would snap their fingers or dislocate their wrists.

I try to avoid injuring people but sometimes it is just so tempting. When I don’t physically hit people, then I end up yelling at them as sternly lecturing them isn’t enough and the teacher is just too useless as a person. When this happens though, it ends up becoming this huge scene whereas slapping them across the head is simple and discrete.

I just hope they don’t test me once again when I’m having a day like this.

This guy wasn’t a friend of mine, just someone I knew. I know I would have been far less forgiving  had I been any more exhausted and frustrated.

Well it took the longest time but alas, I did finish it. It most definitely was a really good drama! Being that of a heterosexual male, I can fairly say that it was a good drama and that the factors attributing to my opinion is not simply just Lee Min Ho.

Must say however, he did a really good job in this one. He honestly is an amazing actor. His talent cannot be denied.

Overall, the drama left that feel good feeling. I mean, it was definitely probably more geared towards guys. It didn’t have many oh my god let’s cry and cry until the company that sells sham wows is as rich as apple moments, but rather fast paced action scenes with emotional background to it.

It really did follow the pattern of most Asian dramas.

Slow start, meet the characters, something happens, all this random stuff happens, then at the end of the episode, something actually happens to move the plot along. Repeat for another 19 episodes.

Of course, I didn’t mind. I enjoyed getting to know the characters. I enjoyed that bonding time. All in all, city hunter went for about 21.6 hours and since it’s so close to exam time, to watch it, I’d have to use up every breathing moment I had. If I had to go to the local shops, would watch on the bus or train, if I had to meet someone, I’d go early so I could watch some Asian drama.

All in all, it was nice. I mean, it got a little obsessive towards the end but I guess that shows how good City Hunter was. Definitely recommend it. Of course everyone’s probably seen it already and I’m just slow when it comes to these things.

Oh well, after my midyear exams, I shall watch some more drama. Any suggestions?

Being a College Captain, I’ve learned a lot of things. You’re always the first to arrive, last to leave. You’re the one who does all the minor things that no one notices. The one who moves mountains only to get criticised.

In essence, it’s not worth doing.

But then I thought about it. My life’s ambition is to become a doctor. Being a doctor is not easy either. If you see someone dying, you have to save them. If you don’t go to their aid, people sue you. If you do go to their aid and they die, people can sue you.

You have to take out special insurance so that when you get sued, you don’t lose your house.

It’s honestly living life on the rocks.

Being school captain is kind of like that.

You do everything in your power to help people, but not everyone will appreciate it. Then there are those who do and they love you for it.

I’ve come to learn that in this world, there will always be people who try to harass you just because they don’t like you or just because they wanted what you have but weren’t willing to put in the effort to get it.

I’ve also come to realise that there’s no point in taking vengeance against them. There’s no real joy or thrill that comes out of it.

If you do want them to suffer, then let them try their best to bring you down because when you get up again, it is them who fall down.

Just some thoughts that came to me. I’m supposed to be studying for an important SAC tomorrow but instead spent the night talking to the year level about random year 12 related things.

Wish me luck guys.